god, i feel like an asshole

Like… I went to his job and everything, bought some iced coffee, some chocolate and write a letter and.. god, Im so pathetic…

I waited like half an hour outside and i was so nervous, and he looked at me like.. with no love, not surprised.. like irritated and.. i lost it.. I said that i was here like shopping and i decided to see him… and he was like… omg.. he didnt care…

and.. i dont know maybe thats the proof that i have to stop trying…

i feel like shit.